Oh it get's worse....

In my search for "pear shaped bodies" here is what I ran across... now that could boost your self esteem couldn't it? Oh Lord, help me please.

WAY TO GO KiKi Carlee!

(march 2008 and july 2008)

This girl rocks! She hit a huge goal today and I am SO PROUD of her! She hit her 50 lb mark and I am just amazed at her strength, persistance and energy to keep going! You are almost to goal girl! WHOO WHOO! Way to go Carlee! I love ya!
Darla

"fruity" body image

I have never had the best personal body image, self esteem, whatever you call it. Mostly because I have always been heavy. Sad, but true. Since I have started to lose weight though, it has improved in a lot of ways. It is cool, as things change, how you see yourself. Sometimes, however, it is NOT so cool. Like today.
** Let me just say, this is more of a personal journaling type of therapy session for myself so if you are not the least bit interested in my pea-brained thoughts, well, you could stop reading now. Consider yourself warned.**
So, today I am out running, jogging, trotting, whatever you call it - I LIKE to say running because it sounds oh so athletic and macho! LOL Anyway, I was out, moving my body - ok?
Let's back up. Recently my sisters talked me into getting some new workout clothes and let's just say they are not my baggy sweats and oversized 3x t-shirts. Oh no. We are talking shorty-shorts (the cool running ones like they wore in the 70's and 80's with the stripes down the sides...remember those?) and some matching racer-back tanks to match, with the coolest most supportive built in sports bras - oh baby! Well, let's just say the shorts are all good, a little short, but cute, no cheeks hanging out or anything.Thank goodness, right? The tanks, well, they are good too, really, I like them a lot, they are extra long and snug but not too tight. Sometimes I like to wear closer fitting clothes bc they show me how much wieght I have lost up top... these tanks fit in that catagory. I don't look like a total stuffed sausage in them but they are snuggy. OK. (If you are with me still, bless you.)
So, I get up and go to the gym this a.m. and it was still quite cold out so I wore a pair of my old workout capri's and then one of the new tanks with a t-shirt over it. I finally decide to take off the tee bc I was roasting hot and what is the point? All good. I finish my workout and feel ok about being exposed in this tank top thing. Now we are back to the running. So, I go out for my run, have my MP3 player jammin' my fave tunes, I am all pumped up, jogging along feeling pretty good and then the sun comes out in front of me and HOLY BEGEEZERS my world was changed. In one instance I suddenly realized that self image is one thing, destructive. The sun comes up, the shadow comes out. Are you with me here??? So, there I am, all in my running mo-jo happiness and someone might as well have hit me over the head with a freakin' baseball bat. I about barfed. MY SHADOW WAS HORRIFIC!
I, to put it lightly, looked like a literal peice of fruit - a pear. My cute little top, all snug and adoreable and then whooooah baby my big ol' gut and but ballooned out a mile around me! It was absolutely horrifying. I was all alone, not even a car driving past and I wanted to shrivel up and hide. Ick! Ack! This is so not goooood! So now, I am feeling a bit fruity and thinking a big fat shadow of even proportions - let's say, a whale? is much better than a peice of fruit. Time to pull those 3x tee's back out baby! This is the part of "big" wieght loss that sucks.

- oh - and my "other" fave 3 Doors Down song...

Love this song way much too! It is so good! I really am rather happy that Chris' CD got stuck in my CD player in the minivan! (shhhh don't tell him that!)

Let Me Be Myself Lyrics

we have a lot of "stuff"

I should have known better - I should have.
I started packing "non essentials" today - all gung ho and happy to move into our beautiful new place.
Ahead of the game.
On my plan.
OMGosh we have a ton of stuff.
Not some, not quite a bit, but a LOT of stuff.
However, I have made a very small dent in it all and I feel somewhat accomplished for the day. :O) Yeah me.
Now the rest of the house has suffered and needs a tidy up - LOL - go figure!

Darla

Holy Wednesday Batman!!!!!

OK so I am a dork - what's new? LOL It is Wed already, this week is cruisin' by fast! I am on this timeline of moving now and the days are already speeding past too quickly! LOL I *DID* go on a box hunt this a.m. and did pretty well. I got quite a few and enough for a good start today. I am going to really try hard to get ahead of the game so that come 2 days before the move I am not a total nightmare basketcase! We shall see...
I have had a MAHHHHHVALOUS morning so far and hey, it is not even 8:00 a.m. yet! How is that for rockin'?? I got up at 4:00 a.m. (yes, before the sun was up) and called babies mamma to wake her up and get her moving... she was here by 4:30 and then we were off to the gym! We worked out a good hour and both learned a few new things from each other (so cool to have a buddy there!) and then did a good, long, hard ellyptical session! I am almost back up to the 30 minutes on that sucker and WHEW it feels good! After that I came home and turned right back around and went out for a 2 mile walk/run! WHOO WHOO! I ran a bit over a mile of the distance and it felt really really energizing and invigorating! I am going to push super hard to get up to the 2 miles I *was* as a couple months ago and then start the megga push to the 3 miles so that I can do that 5K in Oct with confidence and ease (ha ha ha ok, not ease, but confidence)! I am sort of excited for the move bc I'll be able to work on my running in the grass more but I'll miss my old route around our neighborhood!
OK off to get things going around the house for the day and start packing!!

Darla

Love this song!

It's The Only One You've Got Lyrics

Three Doors Down is one of my newest fave bands and thier music is just amazing. Love the stories behind the lyrics - very cool!
Darla

Happy Tuesday

Having a busy morning here. Got Dani off to girls camp for Church, Chris off to work, Ed is at work and baby is sleeping. Tiff and Micheal are both still crashed out asleep too. Hmmm maybe *I* should go back to bed? LOL

So, today will be housework, laundry and a quest for boxes! I have got to start getting the little stuff packed up that I can do in advance and start getting a plan in place to make this move run smoooooth! I can't wait to move, but it is so much work! OYE!

Got a great veggie soup recipe from my sister Carlee - it is 0 or 1 weigh watchers point and just so yummy! I hope to maybe make some this weekend - we'll see? It is hearty and fillingn for sure!

Not much else going on - sorry - a bit boring this Tues morning.

Oh, one share. Oct 11th there is a 5k run here in Idaho Falls and my sisters and some extended family are all pushing to do it!
http://www.runwalkjog.com/pbp24/runforcure.htm
I am really wanting to get up to the full 3 miles to join in - so if you see me HERE online tell me to get my butt outside and go run! OK?? I am excited but want to run the whole race, not just walk and run like I did the other 2 earlier this year! So push me folks! OK??

Alrighty, that is about it for me for today.
Make it a good one!

Darla

It is OUR house now!

We just went and signed our new contract on this house and will be moving in the third week in August! HOORAY! I am one happy and relieved Momma! It is just beautiful and I can't wait! OMG I HAVE A TON TO DO NOW!!!!!!!!!!
Darla

**That little red sign at the bottom of the photo - it is GONE!**

Here ya go! The water play crazies!!

Just a glimpse of all the water fun we had yesterday! My nephews were the worst, the grown ones too! In the brown tee is my newest nephew in law, Jason, who is my niece Rebekah's hubby! He was a HOOT! All his brother in laws threw him IN the pool with the kids! Then my daughter Dani and her cousin Mindy dumped a whole pitcher of ice water over my nephew Travis' head! He loved that! LOL Then there is my lil' "buff" nephew Jeff drying out in the sun and my cousin Jimmy's little girl (in the red) all dripping wet and not loving it! Oh, and don't forget, I have neices and nephews my age and older ... I am the baby of 12 kids in our big ol' mixed up family!!! But I love it all!

Darla

It *IS* Monday.

Very much a Monday in every sense of the word. I am really tired and a bit sunburnt and basically just dragging my butt. Also poor Ed is sicker than a dog. Got some stomach bug going on, poor guy. Too much happening at work for him to take time off too - sucks for him, poor guy! Me? Lots to do today, Chris and Dani getting ready to head off to camp this week. Need to start packing. Going tonight to sign lease agreement with new landlords and get a better tour of the house. My home right now is in total dissaray. Lots to do.
I do have some fun new photos from our family reunion yesterday that I'll share later.
Hope your having a good start to the new week!
Darla

MUST SEE MOVIE!

All I can say is the whole movie theater was full of smiling faces the WHOLE movie and I laughed and cried and laughed while I cried and cried while I laughed and it was SO good! Ed and I went and took our oldest son (17) Chris with us and we ALL loved it! Great funny happy love story with HYSTERICAL scenes! Must See! Darla

Hey all...

Happy Sat to ya! Have had a good but busy morning and plans for a fun afternoon with the kiddos!
Got up and went to the gym and for a walk/run and went for coffee with my sister. Got my laundry all caught up and am taking the kids swimming for a while this afternoon.
Also got some updates on friends family member. They finally got some answers from the Dr's and things look pretty good so if all is stable the rest of the day they'll let him go home. Prayers answered again. Thankful for that and hugs to them!
Well, that is about all from me for now....I'll check in later I guess.
Enjoy your weekend!
Darla

Friday

Not much going on. Ed has to work, Chris and Dani are both gone. Just me and the two little ones today. Thinking a trip to the park might be fun?!
Had a so-so weigh in this a.m. Down 1 lb 6 oz - I can deal with that. Wanted to be in the TEENS today but didn't happen. It is all good. I am down almost 65 lbs total from the start so that is good I think. Just not coming off real fast right now and sort of flustered but not too much as I am seeing the changes in my clothes and body and the scales are just ONE small measurement.
I visited with a trainer/nutritionist for a bit this week at the gym too - he reassured me in several areas as well. He told me that he could see in my face and skin tone that I am in pretty good physical condition - that made me feel good! (Despite the monster zit trying to grow on my nose?! HA!) So, I will just keep on keepin' on as they say.
Got a call from a friend this a.m. that a family member is sick and at the ER - hope the tests all come back good and they get a positive answer. Lots of prayers going that way.
That is about all now - I'll catch up more later. I did want to share a couple of pix from Carlee's last weekend. The kids swimming in the pool out back (Tiff and Micheal) and our purtypurty toenails we did Sunday night! (Carlee, Lisa and my neice Megan's toes!)

Darla

loved this today -- thanks Cindy for sharing

we all talk so much about loosing our baby fat -- ha ha ha I loved this one

slow morning

slow and lazy
baby is sick
have not had fun so far this morning
missed gym and running
slept in as much as I could with sickipoo boy
hope the rest of the day goes better
wish me luck!

later.....

This is the place!

Looks like as of the end of Aug this will be our new home sweet home! More later....

Darla

Must Read

I don't know if this is ok to post or not, but I'll give credit where credit is due. I read this in the Orthod office today in the Aug 08' Better Homes and Gardens mag and I LOVED IT! Going thru this beginner running thing at my age and watching my sisters and friends do it too, well, it was a perfect read for today. ENJOY! Darla

**Click on it to make it larger to read!**

whew!

Whew! Good workouts this a.m.! I am wiped!
Got up at 4:10 to get going, went to the gym
with baby Noah's mom, we did 45 minutes there
and had a good workout. I came home and headed
out agian for another 30 min run ... let's just
say I am wiped out!
Going to be a great day though!!!!!!!!
Darla

OK the photo journal begins....

Had a super fun weekend - first and foremost kudos to my 2 sisters who are going thru this rough ol' weight loss journey with me and keeping my chin above water! I have and OLD OLD photo, a NEWER OLD photo and then one from this weekend! The one outdoors by the trees is from Aug 2006 when I first started loosing. The goofy indoor one with the curtain behind us is from this past Feb when we all decided to go full blown on the wagon, then there is this new one from this weekend. Together the three of us have lost about 150 lbs -- AMAZING! Love you sisters!!! XOXO

Darla